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Swiped from flube - Crack Cigarettes?! .....

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Today i actually talked to some of the other staff instead of being ignored lol. One thing that pissed me off was something some guy emailed around the office. Let me start from the beginning...when i joined i had to write a short article about myself what i like etc etc. So i did, and in it one line read "i like to hang out with my friends and girlfriend"...this was cut to "i like to hang out with my friends". Now, i know its not everyones cup of tea, but i wasnt exactly rubbing it in everyones faces.Anyhoo, i left it alone and didnt say anything - i understand how maybe he did it to protect me or something, or maybe its not company policy....but now i dont think that at all. Today he emailed around this picture of an HUGE obese naked woman swimming, from underwater with the title "what scares sharks". It was VERY graphic, and i cant believe he got away with it frankly, even in our VERY casual office. The thing is, i can see why thats funny - at first i laughed my ass off...but then it hit me that this was the same guy who commented out my article -- what is worse, the few words "my girlfriend", and me being gay, or explicit pictures? what the hell is going on? I dont think i can kick up a fuss or anything, ive only been there a short while, and a lot of people like this guy. grr.My girl will be over soon, sporting her new hair do...nothing drastic just a trim i think. Yay!

im ...early?

Yes you heard it here first, i am up and ready for work with time to kill. I really should go in early, as i would get to leave early...but that would be silly wouldnt it?! Woke up nice and cosy this morning, it was a good idea setting the heating on for 7-8am, when i awoke it looked fairly miserable outside. Cant imagine what its like around 6am when the flatmate gets up *shudder*.Had a worrying phone call last night. I had been trying to get through to my sister all evening, then finally at 7 she called me (her phone had been switched off). She was only waiting until it was free to call, and i told her off for that, as i can call her back - she had broken up with her long term boyfriend only days into getting to uni. Poor pet was distraught but had waited until 7 to call because it was free. She is panicking about money and everything, i felt so helpless, there was nothing i could do but support her and say im here if she needs to call and talk. I hope shes ok :(

I hate Tuesdays.

Tuesday is the day where you cant even begin to imagine the end of the week, not even if you really strain and break into a sweat in the process. What makes it worse is that for some reason i keep thinking its thursday, im a few days ahead of myself. So when i realise its tuesday, grr, makes me grumpy.Good news though...that huuuge half gigabyte zip file of Tristania's albums i downloaded, then found they were some weird .mpc file extension...well i found a damn good player, and i can even convert them too a normal format too. If anyone is into gothic rock, lots of intrumental and operatic overtones, go check them out. Theyre amazing.Im going to have a surf to find the best value TFT monitor that i can afford on payday (friday! *bouncy kitty*)...then its lasagne for dinner and a smoke. Theres no girly tonight, she has gone to her family members funeral - i really wish i could have gone to support her, but she seems ok with everything. Poor chica.

morning campers

bleh...work sucks. And its a beautiful day. So ive decided to wear ALL BLACK. with little red shoes, of course ;)laters loafers...

One day ill do a hard days work...

Ive been in my new job a month or more now, and i really havnt achieved all that much. I do tend to sit around not doing much most of the time, today was no exception. I put my headphones on and rocked out to deftones and yeah yeah yeahs all day. And a few others.The highlight of my day was the food delivery we had, all 10 bags or more of it! That should keep me going for say...3 days?! Lots of snacks, and at last some FRUIT too! My poor body feels so sluggish without fruit and fresh foods.My girl came over, cooked her dinner which was nice, even if it wasnt anything amazing, its just good to share a meal and snack off each others plates. Quite intimate and trusting i think...must be something primal from when we were monkeys. Oh dear, i must be tired!Before she got over i sat and designed a new look for this place, nothing amazing just different and it flows a lot better rather than the old pile of rubbish haha.Right now i have to sleep, im terribly tired. I think my brain just isnt getting enough exercise, especially at work. Just trawling through code hoping to hit upon the bug ive been assigned to fix. yawn. Bedtime, night night x

New choons

I have to admit, Type O Negatives album October Rust is fairly good, lots of pagan tones in there, "green man", "be my druidess", etc. Just didnt know they were that kind of thing, cool :)And that reminds me, Mabon soon! And definatly starting to feel like it:The sun crosses the equator and heads south, signaling the end of summer's impassioned days and the beginning of the quiet winter months.argh, i should really get myself to bed now. Ive just been thinking how good life is at the moment - i dont have a lot of money but that will sort itself out. And anyway, money isnt everything. I have my girl, who i am falling for in a way i have never experienced before, a good job, money coming in (eventually, its only my first month hehe), and a nice place to live. I have *eventually* come out to my sister, who took it really well...everything is cool at the moment.Do you ever reach a moment like that in your life where things are...comfortable? It feels really good. I had a really hard year last year, and i think it makes it feel all worth while to have worked so hard to get me to where i am now.