morning campers

bleh...work sucks. And its a beautiful day. So ive decided to wear ALL BLACK. with little red shoes, of course ;)laters loafers...

One day ill do a hard days work...

Ive been in my new job a month or more now, and i really havnt achieved all that much. I do tend to sit around not doing much most of the time, today was no exception. I put my headphones on and rocked out to deftones and yeah yeah yeahs all day. And a few others.The highlight of my day was the food delivery we had, all 10 bags or more of it! That should keep me going for say...3 days?! Lots of snacks, and at last some FRUIT too! My poor body feels so sluggish without fruit and fresh foods.My girl came over, cooked her dinner which was nice, even if it wasnt anything amazing, its just good to share a meal and snack off each others plates. Quite intimate and trusting i think...must be something primal from when we were monkeys. Oh dear, i must be tired!Before she got over i sat and designed a new look for this place, nothing amazing just different and it flows a lot better rather than the old pile of rubbish haha.Right now i have to sleep, im terribly tired. I think my brain just isnt getting enough exercise, especially at work. Just trawling through code hoping to hit upon the bug ive been assigned to fix. yawn. Bedtime, night night x

New choons

I have to admit, Type O Negatives album October Rust is fairly good, lots of pagan tones in there, "green man", "be my druidess", etc. Just didnt know they were that kind of thing, cool :)And that reminds me, Mabon soon! And definatly starting to feel like it:The sun crosses the equator and heads south, signaling the end of summer's impassioned days and the beginning of the quiet winter months.argh, i should really get myself to bed now. Ive just been thinking how good life is at the moment - i dont have a lot of money but that will sort itself out. And anyway, money isnt everything. I have my girl, who i am falling for in a way i have never experienced before, a good job, money coming in (eventually, its only my first month hehe), and a nice place to live. I have *eventually* come out to my sister, who took it really well...everything is cool at the moment.Do you ever reach a moment like that in your life where things are...comfortable? It feels really good. I had a really hard year last year, and i think it makes it feel all worth while to have worked so hard to get me to where i am now.

I cant work this new fangled thing...

Ok so i have never used the cut function with livejournal before, doh! Im so stupid, so im going to test it now.sheesh, that was scary wasnt it! Nearly got lost in cyber space.Got dropped off by my girl earlier, and have managed to get through resident evil (movie) without weeing myself or having a coronory. I will be sure to have nightmares though.Now for some more family guy! And then bed...

My rock funeral

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Too many crisps

Ive eaten way too many crisps. Spent the whole weekend with my girl which was wonderful. Watched some tv, played some cards, just fun togethery couply stuff. :) I really think she has been my medicine, i am feeling a lot better and my tonsils are soooo looking more healthy.And now tomorrow is monday. bleh. work. Must remember to call the bank and scrounge some more money from them heh heh.

air head

Im a total air headed mentrual ball of nonsense today. I went out to get ibuprofen for my swollen tonsils and cramps but came back with 4 packets of crisps and 10 cartons of juice. That is out of date.Oh yeah and i got one good thing, coconut bubblebath, so i have something for me and my girl to snuggle and bubble up in hehe.

Butch Or Femme?!

Your score placed you in the category of Hard Androgyne. This is the "tom boy" type of ranking. You may also wish to review Androgyne and Gentle Butch, the two categories surrounding you. In a ranking across the femme/butch gamut, if 1 is femme and 100 is butch, you fall between 53 and 60 on the scale. For a review of where you fall in the overall population in numbers, refer to this chart. Your group encompasses folks of all types, genders, and orientations; it includes a large number of males and averages around 41 years of age.Take the Butch/Femme test"You aren't extremely masculine, yet are more drawn to your masculine side than your feminine side. " -- sounds like me, although aesthetically, im very feminine, with long hair and an innocent look, im actually a bit of a slob haha!

ill!

bleh, definatly coming down with something unsavoury...you know your ill when there are ulcers filled with puss on your tonsils ew! knew that would gross you out!Im going back to lying on the sofa. I had a spurt of journal surfing and now im spent.

So much family guy...

Seeing as though the flatmate didnt get in from work until about 10pm (his boss is an evil slave driver) i have been sat watching family guy all evening. I only put it on because i realised i had been staring at the tv screen in a braindead fashion for half an hour watching a show about vitamins. ugh.I had the worst dream last night. It was about aliens, and i was trapped on a boat and they were trying to hunt me down. The funny thing is, when i woke up i realised the aliens looked like jabba the hut with legs, and they appeared to be covered in poo and twigs. At one point one of them spilt their beer on me as i hid under the escalator they were on......i need to smoke less before i go to bed.

told...my..sister

oh my...i told my sister. I told her. I cant believe i told her! She was fairly cool with it, said she would love me no matter what, but it was a bit weird. Understandable, but on the whole, as good as it can get and im a lot more relieved now. She *does* have a lot on in the way of moving to uni, leaving all her friends and her b/f behind, so i guess i sprung it on her at the wrong time.But...i kinda get thinking, and is it really that big a deal? All she has to do is accept it, and then theres nothing more to it really. Theres a lot of adjusting, but in todays society...its not a whole lot to adjust to.Im just glad shes ok with it. She broke the PC again, and i was kinda sad i couldnt be there to fix it because its brand new, and shes taking it to uni. I just felt so helpless because she was getting all upset and hoping my parents wont shout at her. She will get it fixed, im sure. I just wish i could have done more, only its hard over the phone to try and fix something you cant see!Roast dinner tonight, i made it for my girl too, she has had a few very rough days. She lost a member of her family, and the company she works for is making everyone redundant next april. Its far away, but still, she has worked there for 5 years nearly, and it feels like shes losing something she (and many others that are like family at the company) have built from scratch. I just dont know what to do apart from try and be there as much as i can for her. I feel quite helpless. Shes quite tough, she will be ok - just a lot to happen in a couple of days :(I left the living room earlier for 30mins and came back to find my flatmate almost asleep in the chair sideways...he is being made to work so much overtime its unreal. He gets up at 6.30, and doesnt get back in (after an hours commute by train) until after 7 on a normal day, so staying at work until 8pm onwards means a veeery late finish, doh.well...bedtime, my poor brain cant take anymore and this post is getting too long! g'nite world...

touchy feely stuff

I had such an amazing nights sleep, although i did have one crazy nightmare, ones where you wake up gasping for air your so scared. I was going to have a great day going out and browsing the shops and generally doing what i liked but my other half was feeling a little down. Shes ok, we talked a lot and i think shes feeling a little better now. Im not sure what brought it on, i think shes feeling a bit down about her business and worrying about money. It sort of came about after i showed her my web portfolio i designed, then she started talking about how amazing it was and asking if i could re-do her website that she just finished yesterday for her business. Its weird, and i hope it isnt this, but i think she feels pressured to kinda compete with what i had done, she keeps having these feelings of inadequacy (sp?)...but shes a great designer and i feel bad, like ive done something wrong when i havnt. It will be ok. Just a weird dilemma.I havnt got any jobs done today that i was supposed to do. I need some toilet paper, girl things, shampoo (special coconut stuff, anyone else addicted to that scent as much as i am?!)...and thats about it. Its 3.30pm now, perhaps i can meander into town and pick a few things up if i ever snap out of my lazy mood.

another long day

I hate just sitting watching the clock and willing it to go faster. Another day of that.First up was to try and solve yesterdays oh-so-lovely programming delight, which i did once i pestered someone to tell me wtf it was all about. I cant believe they just give you something and expect you to know the answer. grr. Oh well, live and learn.Made a start on the next problem they gave me but i lost the will to live after about...hmm...5 minutes. Do you ever wonder if your doing the right thing? I just think im on the wrong path altogether. I want to create, to design, to fully get stuck into making something wonderful for myself or someone else. What i do now just doesnt really do much for me...the end results do, its just working up to that frustrates me.Other than that im pretty upbeat. dinnertime i think.